It'sbeen a while

yah so its been a while since my last update. for some reason blogger was just not working for me, downloading so slow i wanted to scream...
basically my life has sucked BIG time in the last two weeks. Everything i had fought for or believed in slowly deteriated around me. seems like a very emo thing to say but thats how i'mfeeling.
I am so sick of being under-rated, ignored...i amnot a door mat to which you wipe your feet on. but thats all thats been happening, i've allowed myself to become something i never wanted to be... unhappy, its just really weird.
I fell so lost and confused right now, like i just don't understand life, i just dont get it.
and i still want to be there for everybody and i am, i work on other peoples problems basically to get rid of my own, but...like...remember, i have my own problems too. and im not so good at voicing whats going on. so when i do start to talk about me... please listen. like how is that so hard
im so sick of double standards erg


yah michelle i know you are the only one who reads this. im just randomly ranting, you already know whats going on you are one of the few people who do listen to me i love you (L)(L)