Eventhebestfalldownsometimes
Everything is going to be okay. BECAUSE it has to be. WHAT would be the point of this pitiful exisitence if there wasn't SOME SORT of silver lining. I've found mine. I just need to remember just how beautifuly shiney it is ALL the time. Yes, I get easily frustrated, fed up, torn apart... but I can also be easily happy, kind, loving. It's all the way you LOOK at it.

i dont know why i bother getting excited about things, because in the end it all falls to shit. what a horrible day

fuck

so i know the only person who reads this or even knows it exists is michelle but i dont care i just want to type



I'm so fucking lost, I've gotten to a point where I don't even know what to do anymore.
to quote maroon 5 "waking up is hard to do, sleeping imposible too" or something close to that. i feel like im running around in circles and theres no way to get out of it.
thats why im running away after i get my licence
I love my friends not gonna lie but im sick of being depended on so insanely... i even think about not answering my phone for a day and i get reemed out by at least 10 different people... leaving the island?? haha yea right.
sometimes i just want to get away see something new but everytime i try i just get pushed back and i fall to old ways and fuck myself over... im so sick of not being happy anymore. i'm only happy sometimes and i know its all bullshit because the person who makes me happiest is a cock sucker who will never understand...... fuck....... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuuck fuck. fuckity fuck fuck. i dont know what to do. and i hate feeling like this

Yea sooo

i totally forgot this existed... i dont blog...

And it ends....

So it ends, my high school career finally over. what the fuck am I going to do?

oh for fuck sakes

i dunno if any of you out there who's eyes may pass over this blog (aka michelle) have ever read "all quiet on the wetern front" before. but let me just tell you that it is the lamest dullest stupidest book i have ever read... ever... and i read a lot. fuck i have to do it for english twelve so i can graduate and all but why cant we read something a little less retarted. i could very easily summerize this book in at least half the size and you'd still get all the nessicary information. WHAT IS THE POINT. fuck i hate this book

PROM TONIGHT DO DO DO DO DODO PROM TONIGHT DO DO DO DODO

OH MY FUCKING GOD HOLY SHIT.
Prom was last saturday and i had such a good time. it was basically my dream prom. everyone looked amazing. i looked FUCKING HAWT! and i got to spend the night dancing with my gorgeous boyfriend. (WHO BRUSHED HIS HAIR FOR ME (hee hee hee) ) the food was awesome, entertainment awesome, they had Karaoke in the casino... so me and billy obviously sang boheiman rhapsody it was great half the casino was filled with drama fags and people who wish they were drama fags... it was great. but i have to go finish reading specials because i need to get new books... its so over due. next time we talk ill get into more detail. fuck it was awesome (L)


oh yah after prom, me alex mandy julien kim and rob (kim's date) all went back to the motel and got drunk. i only had four (very strong) drinks so i felt like i was a cheap drunk. the next day i realized i actually went thru half a two six.... hehhhehe no throwing up this time which was a plus (L)(L)(L)(L)(L)